View Full Version : Met With John Edward... What a journey!
06-24-2006, 01:01 AM
I recently had the rare and incredible opportunity to meet and talk with John Edward for almost two and a half hours one on one after his show while he was in San Antonio two weeks ago and I am having the most unusual reaction to meeting him. He invited me as his guest in response to the letter I wrote to him after seeing him in Dallas in April.
I have always been a bit of a skeptic and a bit of a believer but was on the fence until that evening. I had an experience before the show in which days of anticipation and worry had really played a part in my almost not going. I was a firm believer in the show after seeing him in person. It really touched me and I wrote him a letter to relay my experience to and to thank him for touching the lives of so many people. I didn't expect anything in return for that letter much less a response.
Here is the letter I wrote:
Dear Mr. Edward,
First let me start by saying that I donít really expect you to read this. I canít imagine how much mail you get but I felt compelled to write to you anyway. Letís just call it therapeutic and if you do read it, well..., itís an added bonus! I have watched you on and off since Crossing Over was first aired around 1996. I recently had the pleasure of seeing you in Dallas Texas on April 8, 2006 for the first time. I was completely and totally blown away by how comfortable you are with total strangers and as well as with your ability make me feel just as comfortable. I felt like the person on stage would be the same person if I were a friend meeting you for lunch somewhere.
I am not any different than most of the people you come in contact with. I have lost someone that was very special to me and when I read your book, If God Were the Sun, I knew that although it was a fictional work, you really had gone through that loss. In my mind, there was no way that you could describe those intense emotions so accurately and precisely regardless of your gift. There is no pain greater than losing someone who is so much a part of you. It is a loss that takes your breath away and you wonder if you will ever be able to breath freely again.
Hearing you speak brought me a great sense of peace but also an intense sense of longing along with it. I had hoped and prayed for weeks before your appearance that this person would come through and I would get a reading. I lost sleep over it and worried for days about it. On one hand I knew that if I didnít get a reading I would be horribly disappointed but on the other hand if I did I wasnít sure how I would handle it or if I would even believe it. I almost didnít go that night for fear of having my question answered either way. It sounds crazy but that was where I was only four hours before the doors opened. It was only at my best friendís urging I made up my mind to go. (This is where it gets interesting.)
Shortly after making up my mind to go I had the oddest experience. I went to tune my radio to some other station than the awful stuff my husband usually listens to. (Talk Radio) I turned the sound up so I could hear what else was playing. It was playing country and western music and I hate country and western! I didnít think anything of it figuring I had hit the wrong button. I went to push one of the preset buttons to find something else and it was playing the same song! I pushed it again thinking I was losing my mind only to hear the same damn song again.
I thought to myself ďOkay, Okay, obviously there is a reason I need to hear this song.Ē And as I listened, it took my breath away. The refrain of the song was playing and the lyrics of the verse said, ďI waited all my life to get to this place. Donít cry when I am gone. I traveled so far to see your face.Ē I had an overwhelming sense of warmth and had to pull my car over to catch my breath. I collected myself and I suddenly looked forward to the evening with a new sense of peace that I hadnít felt in a while. If it had been any other type of music I would have not paid attention to it. I would have missed it completely. I wanted to believe that the person I was hoping to hear from had reached out to me and I knew at that moment I would not get a reading from you that evening. I was oddly okay with it.
You answered so many questions that evening with out even knowing it. It is my hope that someday I will meet you in person to have a private reading. I am not on your waiting list, we live a long way from Long Island and a lot of things would have to go just right, but if it is meant to be, then it will happen. Hearing you that night, I knew that you were genuine and spoke with the personal knowledge that could only come from the other side. I also wanted you to know that although you touch the lives of those people that you read, you also touch lives and families like mine.
I look forward to meeting you, until then I will continue to wait and to hope. Thank you for sharing your gift. Thank you for touching my life.
As it was I did NOT get a reading and after the show the producer rought me up to ask some questions. I had asked if I would get to meet him and hey has said he had already left the hotel but that they would have a personal Assistant have a book signed for me and bring it up after we were done. Guess who the Personal Assistant was?!? John handed me my book with a smile and a hug! (I thought themicrophones and makeup were a little extreme for just the producer!)
Anyway, he sat and talked with us for more than two hours after he
had just completed a show. I have to say he is the most humble,
gracious, and compassionate person I have EVER come in contact with
in my life! He told me right off the bat that he was drawn to read
people who had unfinished business either here or the other side and
he did not feel like I had that going on.
He was right. I am one of the fortunate few who was
able "communicate, appreciate, and validate" my mother before she
passed. We had a very intense discussion regarding several issues
including the show, skeptics, my faith and about how my mom had
passed but I did not get a reading. I was disappointed but was okay
with it. The interview ended with his staff telling me that they
would get with me about releases on Monday and wanted some pictures
of my mother.
This is where the unusual reaction starts. Saturday morning after the
high of speaking with him had worn off and we were on the way back
to the airport I began to feel the most INTENSE sense of depression
hit like I hadn't felt since my mom's passing. My husband contributed it to being disappointed about not getting read but I was really okay with that.
For the next three days I cried uncontrollably without being able to put my finger on it. It was only after my child came up to me and put his arms around me and said "It's okay, Mommy, I miss her too. She understands.", that I realized that it was grief not disappointment.
Speaking with John apparently brought up some issues about my mom's
death that I only thought I had dealt with at the time. It is hitting me full force and frankly I wasn't prepared to deal with this. It has made me realize that even though I was okay with the way my mom died that I was NOT okay with some of the guilt that I still needed to deal with.
It has also brought me an opportunity to really explore faith again and made me stop and see that I am really missing out on a relationship with God. It brought me to a screeching halt in which I finally have to admit that if his gift is real that it can only be a divine gift and therefore it has to be from God. I can finally say that I am ready to take that leap of faith and really believe in God and Christ. For the first time in my life I am excited about the opportunity to have a relationship with Christ and am eager to learn.
This experience has really started a tail spin of an awakening in me that is both spiritual and metaphysical. I feel like I have been caught up in an emotional tornado and I don't know how to deal with it. I can truly say that I am not the same person I was two weeks ago. It feels like a life time ago that I spoke with him and the sad thing is I can't remember hardly anything!
I called his office to speak with his producer about it and they have not been returned the call. They never contacted me again about
the release or where to send the pictures of my mom. It kind of made me feel like I had been abandoned almost. I keep playing over and over in my head what went so wrong with the interview that they won't even tell me that they aren't interested. It is driving me crazy with all kinds of unanswered questions and I feel SO lost! It is crazy because I have all of this new and wonderful stuff happening in my life and I can't let this go. It is almost like I am grieving the loss of the opportunity to speak with him to let him know the tailspin he has left me in!
So I guess the single question that this REALLY long email is getting to, is how do I get past this? How do I get it out of my head that this once in a lifetime opportunity is gone and I will never get it back? I have to find a way to let this go so I can quit thinking about it. I can't be the only one with this reaction. Any ideas?
06-24-2006, 03:19 AM
What a wonderful person John is to take the time to talk to you. I hope you found the answers you were looking for.
06-24-2006, 09:20 AM
WOW! How incredible for you. I am sorry for the loss of your mother. My thoughts are that maybe this isn't about John but about your mother. You said that you cried uncontrolably for days. That this experience has profoundly changed you. Would it be a stretch to think that you need this time without all the hype to get past your grief. Your mother gave you a very special gift, that is knowing she is ok even though you didn't get read. Is any TV stuff really more important than that. The tv opprutinity may be gone but you will always have with you the memories of your mother and that your talk with John has maybe helped you to see things differently. I don't know everything but for myself I wondered how I would feel if this had happened to me about my father. MY first thought was that I would miss not being able to share my Dad with the world and that being on the show would have been some permanent record of his life or something. But if I step back its a who cares because I know him and the people who love me know him and thats all that truly matters.
So I guess I would say take what you were given, its so much more than most of us get. Know that your mom is looking out for you and loves you and knows what is going on. She certainly doesn't care about tv she cares about you. Some times you just need to let go and let God take care of things. Would you rather have never had the chance to talk to John knowing that this would happen? I hope this long reply helped you some. Its so hard dealing with the loss of a parent, I am sure she will continue to help you!
06-24-2006, 09:51 AM
OMG Messerlori., Your posting blew me away. I am so sorry that your feeling such turmoil at this point in your life. Your letter to John was so touching at times I felt I could of written it word for word.That must of been such a amazing thing to sit and listen to the words in the song!! I am going to see JE July 22 in T.O. And I have to tell you. I have to tell myself to calm down about. I just pray for that validation but I remind myself that everyone there is praying the same thing. Just to be able to be in the same room with his energy is gonna be awesome. Do you think that maybe you should not totally give up on getting those pictures to him. I certainly don't think he meant to abandon you. But perhaps his producers still have it on their to do list. I know his schedule is insane to say the least. Where do you live? I don 't know if you need to do this yourself or if you would like me to try and get your mom's picture s to him. I am a very determined person So determined I got the first two tickets that went onsale for that show. And their is a story behind how those tickets kinda came about:banana: . I don't want to come off as being too forward I just know If it was me that had exerienced what you have I wouldn't give up. If it is meant to be "it will happen"
:rosary: Leigh> Thank God for people like John
06-24-2006, 10:49 AM
Thank you Leigh... I think I am just going to let it go. If it is meant to be and he wants the pictures,they know how to get a hold of me. I have never been the one to wait patiently... but the purpose for meeting him may not have been about my Mom. I am coming to realize that over the last few days but it is still hard. I keep thinking...what did I screw up so badly that they didn't get back with me to even sign a release... And I want so badly to share what has transpired... and to have validation that he knows. Does that make sense?
06-24-2006, 12:53 PM
Your last post reminded me of situations I have been in before. Do you think maybe your feeling of abandonment is actually a desire for "concrete evidence" to confirm that all this happened (with the footage being that evidence)? If so, I can totally relate. It can be very frustrating to have an experience and to tell your family or friends, but they weren't there and it's just not the same as if they could see for themselves. I have wanted to share things before and sometimes it just really gets lost in the translation.
If this is the case, at least you have the people here! I believe many of us could probably relate...
06-24-2006, 01:50 PM
Messerlori, Awhile after I wrote to you I remembered something John had said in an interview very recently. He said "The greatest gift people can give me is to know that I've given people hope and they don't need me to get that validation".:hearts:
06-24-2006, 10:05 PM
I think that is a very big part of it actually. Each day is a little better because of the wonderful things that have been happening. I am getting more and more validations each day. Thank you for your kind words... I don't really have anything from that experience to show... but who knows what will happen in the days to come! Thanks again!
06-25-2006, 02:01 AM
tonight an amazing thing happened I am and was missing my son so much tonight I was on my way back from safeway and I was crying, I wish that he was here there are so many things I need to tell him.
I asked him if he could help me get my dsl working again and it is finally after a month and a half of not working ...working again. On August 17th it will be a year since my son was in the accident and left me. I find myself getting more and more stubborn in my need for him to "come back" I talk to him everyday and I work hard to deal with my grief. I have found so many changes in who I am now and what is important to me. The fund that I am creating in my son's name is helping me cope daily. I want to make sure that no other chilld has to feel as my son did. He was just starting to understand and let go of the pain. Through this journey that I am on I am learning things about myself that I did not know. On my good days I smile and feel okay on my bad days I am either angry or sad. I am hoping that if one child who is relocated after being abducted either by parental or stranger abduction is able to receive adaquate counseling and re integration to her or his family than I will have given Rich some much needed justice. My pain is that I did not do this sooner, but now I try to honor him by living my life. Sorry for the ramble I started to make a point but I just wound up typing this. I hope something I said helps someone else "Work Thru" their grief. Bye for now, Carol:candle:
06-25-2006, 03:21 PM
I think you are doing exactly what you need to do to deal with your feeling right now. You writing this all down will help you to remember everything that happened and is helping you see things more clearly. Grief is a journey. The things we think we are "OK" with, we wake up one day and suddenly we are not, but the next day we are. But it's alright. As long as we allow ourselves to feel those emotions and not hold them in, then we are going the process. I lost my father 22 years ago and I cry several times a week, some happy tears, some sad tears but the grief is there. I've seen John a couple of times. I love his work and his writings. Never had a reading but been to a couple of seminars. I'm always surprised at the extreme emotions that I tend to go through around his seminars because of the amount of signs I receive from my father.
Allow yourself the time to "feel" this journey. You have had an amazing experience. Think of your mother, appreciate her and your family. Your posting touched my heart when I read it.
I would give John's team a week or so to contact you. I'm sure it was not you that did anything in the interview that would make them not use it. You know how bad those camera guys can be;) You can always contact his office in NY if you don't hear from the producers soon. Maybe they can help you.
06-25-2006, 03:52 PM
It has been more than two weeks since I heard from them and the producer has not returned the call in any way shape or fashion. I have just decided to let it go for now. It is like I have this whole new world opened up to me now and I have so much to learn and I can't wait to continue this journey. If it was meant to be then they will call. He is supposed to be back in Texas at the end of August so maybe they will follow up with me then. The only thing I think I will do again is give them a call if I haven't heard anything after August. I would really like a copy of the interview just so that I have something to remember our discussion by. Thanks for your words of encouragement.
06-25-2006, 04:30 PM
I'm so sorry. I must have misunderstood. I have to admit that if it was me, I'd be calling, writing, driving, stalking, no seriously, I would want a copy of the tape also.
One thing I did not say before, that I would like to say now. I'm so glad that you had a special connection with God during this whole experience. I hope you continue your connection and it grows. I know I cherish my religion and it's very personal (as it is with most of us :love: ) Most people assume that just because we believe in physics or anythings metaphysics that we are not religious and I think it strengthens my faith daily. Because only something so good can come from God. So I really enjoyed reading your testament.
Just know when ever you are healing down or when you are feeling good, we are here.:hearts:
06-26-2006, 12:01 PM
I really appreciate that all of you are here for me! I have been talking with Pam B. and she has really helped me sort throught this. I am just going to have to let this go and know that if they are going to contact me they will know how to get a hold of me. And if he doesn't get a hold of me then maybe I was only meant to talk to him to start me on this journey. I have so many questions... the main one being, why can't I remember hardly anything! I think that is the most frustrating thing of all.
It has been like a whole new world has opened up for me and I have these two competing forces asking - no - telling me to look into them. On one hand I have this whole metaphysical awakening going on and on the other I have this spiritual awakening. I am torn because I now that I have embraced them both... I want to learn everything I can about both. I am already running into conflicts with the church... so that makes things even tougher. How do you balance the two?
06-30-2006, 08:13 AM
06-30-2006, 08:35 AM
UPDATE: FINALLY LETTING GO. :clap:
With the help of our wonderful moderator, Pam B. I have finally gotten to a point where I can let this go. In speaking with Pam, she helped me identify what it was that was really bothering me about this whole process.
It was the fact that I didn't have control over what was happening and the fact that I had to comepletely re-evaluate everything I had previously believed. In an effort to bring closure to this I wanted to share the last letter I sent to John.
Pam B., thank you, thank you, thank you, for being there for me to talk to! If I never hear from John again I am finally okay with that and just as you told me... I hope that I can continue to help others to the recognize that this journey is truly not about the medium but about the message.
I never imagined in my wildest dreams that speaking with you in person in San Antonio would have such a profound affect on my life. Although it has only been 20 days since your appearance there I feel like a lifetime of experiences has happened to me in those twenty days. I am not the same person I was three weeks ago.
It is like you opened this door for me in which you changed my view of reality. I have gained so much out of this experience that I can't begin to tell you. It is like I am seeing life in a whole new way with different colored glasses. A whole new world has opened up for me and I can't wait to learn everything I can. I did not see any other choice and in a way I finally have answers to things I have always had doubts about all of my life. That is why this journey has been started. I know that now.
It was so overwhelming at first and I had this insatiable thirst to find answers to why I was feeling such intense emotions. I thought to myself I canít be the only one out here who has had this experience so I set out on a mission to find others who had spoken with you to see if they had similar reactions. What I found was an incredible woman by the name of Pam Blizzard and a web community by the name of Friendscommunities.org that has helped me work through a great deal.
In talking with Pam I have come to realize that I am at a cross road of sorts. I have two paths that I can take. One path leads downward and spirals perilously close to the edge of the mountainside where if I choose to stay stuck in grief or to make you the daily focus of my thoughts and actions I will surely fall. The other is a pathway leading up the mountain where I can move through grief and into light and love where I can listen closely to the cues you have given and I can make my own spiritual journey and learn to fly.
You made me realize that if I knew in my heart that your gift was for real.... then I had to take a second look at everything I have heard you talk about. That included not only the spiritual side of things but the metaphysical as well. It made me stop and take an inventory of my life. It forced me to examine my ENTIRE belief system. In talking with Pam, she helped me see that metaphysics, spirituality, our guides, the other side and our own gifts are all interconnected. The energy is one in the same that comes from one loving source. I know that now.
I am still not sure about everything but I know that with time and exposure my questions and prayers will be heard and answered. I have so much to learn, explore and I am excited about the prospects that lay ahead. I still have a healthy dose of skepticism but I have already had several validations that I canít deny and I will forge through this so that I can continue my own personal journey. I want other people to know in their hearts what I have learned and for them to know as well that you are rightÖ this journey is not about the mediumÖ it is about the message. I only hope that I can contribute back to other people on their journey as well in the way that you have helped me. Thank you.
And once again thank you to everyone who has helped me through this. Pam, Pam2, Dawn, Gina, Nan, and all of those of you who responded to me - THANK YOU!:D
06-30-2006, 09:06 AM
:hearts: :musicnote :hearts:
I am so happy for you....you just got past the biggest hurdle in all of this.
:clap: :clap: :clap: :clap: :clap: 5 claps for Pam B. :dance:
We are all here to learn, and as I told you the first day we spoke in chat, your story to get to JE was inspiring. I'm glad you are open to exploring the metaphysical aspects instead of falling off that cliff!! Yikes!
I'm not far ahead of you on that same path....reading more everyday. Everyone here is somewhere on that same path, and is here to learn from each other. JE's message changed my life too, and opened up a new world. Glad you are finding more balance each day. :candle:
06-30-2006, 07:39 PM
Wow! Enjoyed this post. Isn't it interesting how people have been drawn to this site?!?! Maybe initally people came here because of JE. But I think we were drawn here for other reasons. Dee
06-30-2006, 09:21 PM
I also REALLY enjoyed reading this post.I am so happy you found what you came here for "support". The more and more I visit this site I am literally astounded @ the connection surrounding us all. And Messerlori as far as you hoping to give back something, well you already have. Reading your letters made so much sense for me. Their was alot of comfort in your words and I thank-you:clap:
It sounds like you are feeling better about things these days, and I too am so happy for you!
Hopefully John will personally read your letter, but even if not, I'm thrilled you are embracing the message of his work.:wave:
((((( Lori )))))
Thank for such kind words about me -- you are so too kind. I'm sure you would have come to these conclusions on your own. Maybe we just helped you get there more quickly. :love: You are very, very welcome. It's what we all do here - we discuss, share feelings and opinions and maybe provide a different point of view. Maybe sometimes we agree...and sometimes we don't. The important thing is we all get to tell our stories :coffee:
You're not alone Lori, many of us were so deeply affected by these realizations about This Side, the Other Side, the Afterlife, etc. but you expressed this life changing "experience" very well.
The "process" can definately transform one's world view dramaticially. Change of any type (even superbly positive change) can knock us off kilter. Few people like change, and it can be really hard letting go of old perceptions that just don't work any more :)
:beer: To continued evolution, for us all :hearts:
07-03-2006, 08:06 PM
Thanks Pam! I could not have made it had I not found this wonderful group of people! I only hope that I can find a way to give back to others. :love: I have so much to learn that it is difficult to know where to begin. I am so anxious to contribute something back and don't know what I can possibly do.
I think first and foremost I need to finish JE's Practical Praying and find a place local that shares the same ideas and thoughts. I also want to continue with meditation. That in itself is going to be enough to keep me going for a while. If anyone else has any suggestions I am all ears!
07-19-2006, 04:20 PM
Was that you on John Hollands Spirit Connections on Monday?
If so, you are one lucky girl.
Getting to talk to John Holland and John Edward in less than a month, I'd say your mom was working overtime on her validations.
It's not easy to get to talk to either.
07-20-2006, 09:24 AM
Was that you on John Hollands Spirit Connections on Monday? If so, you are one lucky girl. Getting to talk to John Holland and John Edward in less than a month, I'd say your mom was working overtime on her validations.
Yes, it was. I know that I am very fortunate indeed! In addition to talking to the both of them I was also fortunate to speak with Lydia Clar the following day. She said some things that really made me think. The main thing was "Why are you still asking for validations after the experiences you have already had. You already know the answers." She is right. :redface3:
The one thing I have been told over and over about this is "have patience". My guides have told me this at least three seperate times, Pam B. our wonderful moderator, has told me this over many late night discussions, and Lydia now... I guess some of us just need to be hit over the head before we get it... after all it took meeting John just to get this far in my thought processes...talk about being hit in the face with it!
The synchronicities just keep coming! After one particularly long conversation with Pam B. regarding the path I have been started on.... a very meaningful message was sent to me. I have a book that is a daily devotional for women... the message for the day was " Don't outrun your headlights" It told a story someone who had just bought a motorcycle and was given that advice. It wasn't until they got into the country at night and began to race through the darkness that they understood what it meant.
The faster he went the less he could see. The light wasn't illuminating the bends and turns in the road and only after slowing down could he let the light do its work and travel safely.
My journey has been very similar to that! My guides have shown me the path and lit it with love and protection but I have to slow down so that I can see where I am going safely. They show me where I am and only hint at my destination. I came to the conclusion that each day is another mile in this journey and it is up to me to make sure I slow down so I can see where I came from, where I am now, and where I am going so that when I get there I will understand what this life's lessons have been and that my intentions have been pure!
Sorry for being long winded... ;)
Lori, I'm glad that things are beginning to make sense and fall into place for you. :) The journey, itself, is so important, so beautiful, almost magical, that it would be a shame to miss out by trying to rush through it. Each step along the way is as important and fulfilling as the last.
This new spiritual journey that you're on is worth every minute -- slow down and enjoy the ride!
07-20-2006, 02:57 PM
Don't worry Lori,
I know exactly what it's like to want to know everything all at once.
You're definitely not alone on that one.
My poor Guides must think I act like a 3 year old kid sometimes.:o
07-20-2006, 05:02 PM
Lori, you are a very eloquent writer and I am touched by the things you write. Love ya girl!
07-20-2006, 05:13 PM
Holy cow you sure have been busy. I must admit "I"M JEALOUS":green: I would have loved to have seen you with John Holland. I still have never seen his show.. I am going to Toronto this weekend to see JE(first time)and I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo excited:dance: :banana:. So hey send me a little bit of of your energy this way K;).
It's really frustrating cuz I live in Ottawa and its just not easy getting access to his seminars let alone even his books (which I finally succeeded at). NO one here has even heard of the WE channel and most people have never heard of JE period! Another reason why I cherish this Site. So I made my own shirt in hopes that maybe there's another Canadian in the crowd who is a member of Friends?Well Would love to chat with ya when I get back. Bye for now:wave: Leigh
07-20-2006, 05:45 PM
Spirit Connections is on Hay House Radio. You can access it on the internet.
John Holland is just one of the many gifted people on there.
The shows are archived so you can listen whenever you want.
Just look for Hayhouse.com.
07-20-2006, 08:23 PM
Thanks for the info Believer..I had no idea about Hayhouse Bye for now
07-20-2006, 08:36 PM
:redface3: Awwwww Shucks... thanks healergirl! :redface3: Who knows... maybe someday I will write a book about all of this! LOL
07-20-2006, 09:24 PM
Hope you have a GREAT time this weekend....
How cool you made your own shirt!!:hearts: I didn't know about friends when I saw JE!
And don't worry, you'll get your :cake1: even if you don't get a reading!
But we all know the messages will come through for those its supposed to.
Have fun!! Be sure to post....if you take notes we can all share!!
07-21-2006, 07:59 AM
[QUOTE=Messerlori]Yes, it was. I know that I am very fortunate indeed! In addition to talking to the both of them I was also fortunate to speak with Lydia Clar the following day.
Wow you are a very connected lady.:hearts:
I know what you mean about wanting more and not seeing beyond the end of your nose. That is me as well, keep on searching and not seeming to find the answers. Kinda like a dog chasing their tail:eek:
08-07-2006, 10:11 PM
The past few weeks I have been reading and listening to a lot of spiritual and inspirational material. In Carolyn Myss’ Spiritual Madness, she talks about the Dark Night of the Soul…. the place you end up after experiencing God’s presence for the first time. It is not the calm before the storm but rather the chaos after.
It is a place where you feel like you are losing control because all you want is answers and to calm the chaos… but then you realize that God is Divine Chaos and that the answers aren’t always what you expect. She also talks about how it is necessary that everyone experiences the Dark Night and that as we continue to grow in our spirituality that we will “relapse” and that we will have more than one Dark Night to go through over our life times. I guess what I am alluding to is that just when you think you have things figured out the carpet gets pulled right out from under you.
I have also discovered that I am unusually sensitive after reading, seeing, or talking about this process of enlightenment… I get tearful… I get whiney… and SO emotional depending on the impact of whatever I have been studying. Needless to say I have met my dark night and then some!
It is worse than having PMS! Do you think there is such a thing as spiritual PMS? :yikes: I know SPMS! Is there a pill for it? If not… Quick! Somebody market it! You would make a killing! LOL :D
Any way… So last night… I am having a bout of SPMS… having my Dark Night relapse… and I allowed my mind to wonder again if I would ever have a chance to ask John about any of this. I asked my guides for some guidance and to show me a sign… (another thing I have learned about this guidance thing…. DON’T ASK UNLESS YOU REALLY WANT IT!)
I got my sign…. The first email of the day was from a friend who very rarely forwards me stuff. It was a list entitled “The positive side of Life… and the first one on the list … the VERY first one said this: Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened. I am always a little amazed at how the synchronicities seem to fall into place just when you need some enlightenment. :P
I just love it!
08-08-2006, 08:55 AM
I can see why John took the time to speak to you personally.
Every time you post I become more and more impressed with what you've learned and want to share with us.:hearts:
08-08-2006, 09:47 AM
Everytime I read your post I am amazed at how much we have in common. " I find i will have these days where my head hurts so bad cuz it just never stops trying to find answers to all the questions i have. And just when I feel the lowest I can go "Boom" something will happen that changes my whole perception on my negative thinking. I sometimes think I must have been so blind to not pick up on all the coincidences(God's winks) that occur in my life. Even my sister who went to see JE with me has called lately telling me "boy the strangest thing happened today" and they are all stories of spirtual happenings She is also amazed that she was just not opened to it before.
Lori, I hope your journey leads you to a happy place in your life.
God Bless:angel: Leigh
P.S. I am yet to get out and get that book,I will put it on my to do list This Week!!
08-08-2006, 09:49 AM
And oh yeah YOUR FUNNY LOL:laff2:
08-08-2006, 10:02 AM
:hearts: SPMS! Too funny! You definitely have a way with words because that is EXACTLY the right term for it! :love:
04-12-2007, 10:35 PM
So here I am almost an entire year down the road from the event that started me on this wonderful journey. I find myself in almost the exact circumstances that brought me here looking for answers but this time I go armed with a little bit more information and alot more "Friends" to share the exprience with. :love:
Saturday night Mike and I are going to see John Edward again. It will be a year almost exactly since I started down this path and and I am filled with SO many different emotions but this time of a different nature I think.
On one hand, the words, "leave your expectations at the door" keep running through my head and I know I need to go and just enjoy the evening because it will be a wonderful evening no matter what. Watching him work in person is such a powerful experience.
On the other hand...
I also can't help but want some closure of sorts. Who wouldn't, Right? I am human after all. There is so much that I want to share and tell him but I know in my heart that he already knows. I also can't help but hope that my Mother comes through... So many questions I didn't get to ask the first time around you know?
I guess if I am supposed to be read I will be and if I don't - someone needed it more. I just hope that this time if the Queen "Barnaby" lady decides to show herself again... I at least get to say hi before she brings the rest of the troops through! LOL :laff:
Any thoughts? Advice? Oh well... I have my good friend Jeannie coming too! It will be a really fun evening no matter what!
Dear Lori and Jeannie, you already know that no matter what happens, it is going to be wonderful just being there, and with a good friend :love:
04-13-2007, 07:01 AM
((((Lori)))) You've already said everything I would give you as advice. Leave all expectations at the door. Let go and let God. I know, I know...we're human though! Of course you want to hear from someone!
I know you will enjoy the experience of watching others connect with their loved ones even if you don't receive a personal message. If you don't get the "closure" you feel you need on Saturday, the other side has their schedule and will connect when the time is right for you.:hearts: Just keep yourself open to receiving messages for yourself. Through synchronicities, etc. I know you do that already!
Love and lots of hugs,
04-13-2007, 09:58 AM
(((Lori))) I am just so excited:dance: :banana: :clap: for you WOW your are going to have a wonderful time. Just don't let past emotions sneak up on you, you have come to far to let that happen. Hopefully John will see you there and have the time to stop to say hi, But remember this I know you are so thankful for him coming into your life but never forget that you touched his life aswell from the words in your letter to him!!! So go, enjoy and let the experience be another page in your amazing journey.
Wow, what can I say that these wise and wonderful ladies have not already said?
((((( Lori ))))))
How about gratitude, which seems to be the theme of the day? Setting your mind on gratitude for all that happened to you in the last year. You know how many people would have given their right arm to have had a private audience with John Edward? Gratitude! :) And so many other experiences, readings, teachings, lessons, new Friends and other connections?
So this one year marks a milestone. One of many more to come! :banana:
Soak up the energy in that room, and the healing that will permeate the very air.
Laugh, cry, and give thanks to a loving Creator who allows us the "signs of life" from the Other Side, and thanks to people like John who are willing to devote their lives to bringing us these signs. Bless him, bless our loved ones on the Other Side and Bless Yourself! :hearts: Enjoy!
Just one more thought...
I also can't help but want some closure of sorts.
I've heard that "closure" is a myth, that it's not something that a person can ever truly get, have, achieve, etc.
04-13-2007, 02:28 PM
How about gratitude, which seems to be the theme of the day? Setting your mind on gratitude for all that happened to you in the last year. You know how many people would have given their right arm to have had a private audience with John Edward? Gratitude! :) And so many other experiences, readings, teachings, lessons, new Friends and other connections?
Your post is precisely why I posted this again because I knew I could count on my Friends to guide me and remind me what is important.
Thanks Pam. Grattitude is definately where I need to be coming from. Thanks for reminding me. It is hard not to get wrapped up in our expectations sometimes. You are SO right... reading that just now.... your words ... put perspective on things again. :redface3: Thank you.
I am grateful to John for sharing his gift with so many people selflessly.
I am grateful for the healing he provides to those that need it.
I am grateful for the wonderful people that this experience has brought into my life.
I am grateful for your humbling words and the forum you provide us to share safely these expriences.
Thank you for reminding me. :hearts:
04-13-2007, 05:30 PM
Well Lori how about a little gratefulness from me to YOU for your sharing your story.. Its always nice to hear about people we can talk to that have a chance to be read. I like getting that little piece of cake (with no calories even) enjoy your time. Sit back, listen and relax.. if it is suppose to happen it will.
04-13-2007, 10:23 PM
I am grateful that I have my friend Lori to go with.
I am grateful that John does what he does and that I will be able to see him and learn from him again.
I am grateful JE brought Lori here to us to be our friend, (JE brought me here to this site as well)
I am eternally grateful for you all - my friends - esp Pam for providing a home for us to meet and exchange our beliefs, ideas and love.
:hearts: :wave: :hearts: :love: :hearts:
04-15-2007, 12:32 AM
As always seeing John is such an amazing experience! The crowd was a small one, maybe about three hundred people and was quite subdued all things considering. We had front row joe seats so it was nice! I have to agree that the first row is probably not the best place to sit though.... half the fun of going is seeing how John's readings affect people.
John gave some very detailed readings to several families. I am amazed at how much he can interperet each time I see him. He read one young woman and her mom who was here from Mexico and was able get some very detailed information to the family from her father. It was incredibly detailed and evenright down to the fact that she had a sister who did tarot readings and went on to describe the cards she used! It was amazing!
There were several families who really got the readings that they needed and it was really nice to see it happen. Especially when one of those families was quite skeptical... by the end of the reading... they were not!
I wish I could report back that I was one of those that got the reading, but I can't. The cool thing is that I am REALLY okay with that! During the readings I decided to take notes as he went from family to family. I figured that some of the families that were read probably would not have thought to do so or would be in shock and like myself... wouldn't remember a darn thing later. During the break... I gave those notes to them and it felt really good to be able to do that.
As John wrapped up the night he made a comment that really hit home and I know that it was meant for me. He said that the seminars were not just for the people that got readings but it was also for those who did not get them. (Sound familiar?) :D My heart stopped because that is pretty much what I told him in my first letter to him! He also said that if you spend all of your time thinking about whether or not you are going to get read next that you miss what the messages of the other readings are and that is to not wait until it is too late to tell your loved ones NOW what they mean to you instead of having to have him as a medium.
SO... there is closure for me after all... It was in NOT getting the reading and KNOWING in my heart of hearts that I didn't need it. :love:
04-15-2007, 07:07 AM
I am glad you got the messages you needed in well not getting read. Now you have both sides of the fence, the feelings and messages you get from being read and the messages you STILL get when you havent. Every time I read someones posts about getting read I get a warm fuzzy feeling knowing that my family is out there watching over me as well. Even if they are rather quiet LOL.
04-15-2007, 09:50 AM
Awww Lori how thoughtful of you to take those notes for others and give them to the ones being read. They are all probabally talking about ya over coffee this morning saying "Wow that was so nice of that woman to do that" Its so hard to not take the front seats eh?? I hope Mike enjoyed as much as you did.
04-15-2007, 10:13 AM
(((Lori))) Thanks for sharing your journey with us!:hearts: :hearts: :hearts:
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